Change

Here I sit, attempting to pen a support letter for school. I will begin my year at The Berkshire Institute for Christian Studies on August 25th, and I need to have my finances in order. A cursory glance at my last bank statement reveals that I need help. I'm OK with that. I guess two jobs this summer and one in Lenox for the year aren't enough to get me through the year, so I am utilizing BICS's DiscipleBuilders program. Hopefully a few nice people will be willing to lend me pecuniary assistance. I wonder what my chances are for getting a job in a health food store... I could take that for a year.

The problem is that at this moment I'm not excited about going. Curious, but not really excited. Or maybe I'm excited about being there, but not about leaving home, and the latter feeling is strongly outweighing the former. Maybe I'm nervous about homework assignments, roommates, research papers, SAT's, finding a piano teacher to work with. My mind will be distracted by questions about the future. I want to take the SAT, as well as two SAT subject tests, put together a piano audition, and apply for college. What college? The one that appeals to me right now, at this moment, is a secular school in New York. I wonder if I could handle that. Maybe if I find a good church...

Uhg. I'm back. I think the letter is pretty much done. I just hope it isn't too sappy. I have a feeling it is.